My stress levels have reached an all time high. The last doctor�s appt. I went to, the doctor retested my blood due to elevated liver enzymes. Well those were still high, but they figure that when I lose the weight those should go down. But my sugar was high. So he sent me home to fast overnight and then return for more blood work. I fretted over that and it turns out with good reason� my sugar had not gone down even with fasting. I think the norm is 120 (I could be wrong) and my blood sugars were over 260. So now I am officially a diabetic. And scared out of my mind actually.

Hello, My name is Sara and I'm a diabetic.

I have to do what I have deemed the �pokey-pokey� twice daily. That�s where I have a device that pokes my finger to draw the blood which I put on a test strip in a machine that shows my results in 5 seconds. I�m doing okay about that. And today was a good day. This a.m., my sugar was only 184 and before dinner it was 160. A relief to me.

I have to go back Wednesday to go over my results of my self checks with the Doc. And hopefully he still says I�m clear to have surgery. He said last time that he has every confidence that after surgery, my diabetes will disappear. Friday, we have an appointment to talk to the anesthesiologist and then after work I have to go in for another sleep study to see if a CPAP machine will work for me. (I hope I don�t need one. Ugh!) Monday, I have my Pre-Op meeting with my surgeon and Mary Kay. And if all of that goes well, (and damn it� after all I have been through I would hope The Big Guy Upstairs would cut me a little slack) they operate on Wednesday.

I�ve been doing a lot of thinking, a whole boat load of praying, and wishing on all the stars that I can be operated on on Wednesday and that I pull through without any problems so that I can get back to normal as soon as possible. Whatever the hell normal is anymore�

Pray for me guys. I need all the help I can get!

Simply,

Sara