But I think that things are back to good now. So much has happened that I can;t even hope to catch everything up in detail. But what I haven;t taken the time to put here in this diary, is in my paper diary. So it all balances itself out I guess.

Shawn's mom should be moving soon. Going back to Saginaw, and most likely, her old life. But what can we do. His little brother will be staying here with us until she gets settled into a respectable home. I'll just be glad to get my home life back to good. Im tired of sharing my house and all in it while other people reap my rewards. And not being able to do what I want, when I want because someone is already using/doing it.

Shawn and I are doing well. We have our usual spats... but nothing major lately. In fact, we've been getting along great. We've been making like jack rabbits behind closed doors, driving down the road, on the front porch... yowza. Just the other day, since we are on a 4 day weekend, I asked him to take me to dinner, since he wanted to go look at new tv's and try to take our dying tivo in for repairs, he relented. We stopped at the local Rent-A-Center. Tho we swore to never go there again because when ya pay what ya get off, you pay 10 times what it's worth... but that idea went to hell. The sales guy gave me a scratch off sale ticket. iuts a promotion, you win free weeks rent etc. Well, i won a DVD player. But ya HAD to get something. So, we bought a 50 inch big screen floor model style t.v. WOOT! That'll be great if we ever get the tivo fixed. Even without it it's nice... but it'll be better when I can watch my shows. I was exstatic to win the dvd player. I hope it arrives soon. I tried convincing shawn to take me to the casino, but settled for dinner at ponderosa, shawn's fave.

My Dad, My little brother Aundre, Cassie and Carter all came up for the weekend. They're leaving early in the morn. I have spent all weekend spoiling and loving them all. My Dad taught me how to can tomatoes. That was fun. I canned a whole bushel. YAY. I even found out how blonde I can be when I attempted to make salsa, cut open a jalepeno. It didn;t smell spicy or have juices. So i stuck my tongue right down the middle. I wanted to cut my lips and tongue off. Hours later, the flames subsided. But my pride is still severely wounded.

I have been doing a lot of thinking lately. About life, where I want to go, which path to take, etc. etc. I think I'm finally working things out. I have decided I prolly won;t continue to see Dr. Vann. Although he made me feel better, his billing methods and falling asleep during my $130.00/hour sessions left me irked. But I might seek a true pro. Until then, I'm still moddy as hell. But I'm still in the game. And that, my darlings, is sweet surrender.

Until I have more time...

Blessed be.

Simply,

Sara