Other than being terribly slow, dragged out and boring... work went off without a hitch. It wasn't so hot that our flesh baked and melted our clothes to our skin. It was a rather quiet and tame evening. I battled a migraine and fought waves of nauceousness for a bit. But after taking my med, the headache subsided and I could see again. :)

On the way home, as Shawn tried desperately to switch lanes so he could hit Taco Hell on the way, I asked him if he mided if we stopped at Family Video. I hadn't rented DVD's in eons. And there were a few I wanted to grab. So we got our grub and crossed the street over to the video store.

I rented Beloved. I ahdn't heard about it when it came out. Nor do I know anyone who has seen it. But I heard somewhere on TV that Oprah was so inspired by the book, that she funded the movie financially, (and I know Oprah knows books!) but it flopped. Then I got Crossroads, The Majestic and The Wash.

After arriving home, I did up the dishes, picked up the living room and headed into the bathroom for a much needed cool shower. After washing my greasy slime coat away that we get at work, I climbed into my p.j.'s and went and popped some popcorn.

I watched Crossroads first. I'm not a Brittany Spears fan to say the least. But she was damn good in the movie. The whole movie, cast and all was great.

The movie was about 3 girls, once best friends who lost each other over the years in a way, then they embark on a road trip and reunite. It was good, but sort of depressing for me. It took me back to the fact that I longed so desperately to be one of those girls. I wanted to be able to just say "Awww, screw it" and head off on a road trip with good friends.

Which leads me to the depressing part. What friends?! Remember that whole liver thing??? It's haunting me, I swear!

But it's time to change that. I don;t know how. Like Tamra once said... ya can't just walk up to someone on the street and ask to be their friend. Maybe an ad in the Sunday Paper? Ugh!

It's after 5 a.m., I have plenty of popped popcorn... lots of movies to watcg... and family who will embark on their road trip north by noon to come see me for a day and a night. My sister Lisa can;t make it. Damn it all!

So anyways...

SWF seeks same for possible LT friendship. Must be good listener, someone who can be open and honest, a person who knows how to laugh and offers a safe place to cry.

Organ donorship and care free road trip possiblilities...

LOL! Yeah... right. If only it were so damn easy.

There was this song in the movie... where Miss Spears sings the words:

"I am not a girl... not yet a woman"

That is soooo true for me. Even though I am 26. I am NOT a girl anymore... but I don't quite yet feel like a woman. There is so much I havn't done, so many things I have to live out. And I'm okay with that for once.

I'm glad I'm not a girl. And I'm not yet ready to be a woman.... I need time. (Though that seems to be limited) Right now, I'm working on figuring out who I am. And until I do... I'll be the chica in the middle. (Better than a monkey!!)

Simply... Sara!